This is how my dog looks at me when I hit said "wall".
I mean, don't misunderstand when I vent on this issue. I'm beyond grateful for this unbelievable opportunity to live over here with my husband. And to have the access to travel (the cost alone is so cheap and awesome) but a person who had a professional career and was fully loaded with a social life, takes a hit at some point. And you wonder, what in the HELL am I going to do with myself. The reason I bring this up now...is due to the fact that this wall and I have met again.
The Piccadilly Train Station in Manchester, England
So realistically it leaves this wife to try and figure out what I'm supposed to do with my work life as we go forward and live within this military world. I mean my sales world is dunzo. Applying for jobs on post are....well, limited and not even worth it most times. (Severely under paid, and most usually require a 4 year degree. For what reason, I couldn't tell you.) So I've reached my edge of sanity with not working here.
However, let's look at the flip side. It's AWESOME not working! I mean who really ever complained of that!? You're in a great country, freedom to kind of do whatever you'd like and why wouldn't you love that opportunity. You can grab a coffee, wander around whatever city you'd like and check out all these different markets and shops all day! It's really great! But...you're spouse is working while you get to see all this great stuff. I actually enjoy spending time with my husband, so that's a small back fire to that. But we make up for it on the 4 day weekends and the occasional night out during the week.
We get to walk some amazing trails on the daily over here!
I'm also looking into starting a new career...finishing up the research as we speak and going to finalize my decision very soon. It's just a bit intimidating to start over...but it shouldn't be, right?! I can start from scratch! Whatever I'd want to do. So just take the leap right?! If you fail, at least you tried (although I don't fail, dumbest statement ever.)
So I guess what I'm saying is, I'm just as guilty for hitting low self esteem and will absolutely over think EVERYTHING from time to time. I miss having my girlfriends and family close by to smack me upside the head to tell me I'm totally normal and not crazy. You learn to be a bit more self sufficient, which I'm also grateful for! I'm not alone on this right?!
Well, I'll keep my head up and attitude positive. I'm all about appreciating what's in front of me and staying in the moment! Speaking of what's in front of me...we're off to Croatia this weekend!! Cannot wait! #staytuned #notfromaroundhere #tchuss